without warning

transitions are an interesting part of life.

i am aware that the only constant in life is change. i like change and welcome it. but what no one ever prepares you for is the transition. we have this belief that change is usually big and hits us over our heads on a random rainy tuesday when we least expect it. the truth is, change is ever-flowing and we don't realized something's happened until we turn around and see how far the past seems.

everything we do is in accordance to what we have done. and everything that is to come will be a reflection of what is done today. everyday is a new start and a new testament. so how do we know we are making the right choices? there was a wonderful quote i read the other day : if you're facing in the right direction, keep walking. but who's to say what's right or wrong? in a parallel universe perhaps i'm living in a hotel in greece working at a jet-ski stand, maybe i'd be in africa teaching english to kids, or maybe i'd be living in the east right on the water owning a candle shop with my husband and two kids (boy and girl. boy is eldest.) wouldn't it be nice if could transport myself and try each on for size?

"there is no means of testing which decision is better, because there is no basis for comparison. we live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. and what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself? that is why life is always like a sketch. no, 'sketch' is not quite the word, because a sketch is an outline of something, the ground-work for a picture whereas the sketch that is our life is a sketch for nothing, an outline with no picture."

- kundera, "the unbearable lightness of being"