an honest heart





it's been too awfully long since i properly write on my blog and let you all in to my deeper thoughts and feelings ....

in two days i shall be traveling back to england and although i am terribly excited, i am also keenly aware that i am going back to the drizzling land where i fell in love last year. from the moment i got off the plane in los angeles from that trip, my loins were screaming at me to go back. go back to london. go back. go back. go back. 
almost a year later (with many things that have changed around and within me) i once again bought a ticket back to britain. for me, one of the biggest and most fearful occurrences in life is to return to the scene of the crime - to return with a sound mind and body. how to separate the loved from the location... the location from the loved. 
this is my humble quest: the separation. 
this magical city can not be contained by one man, nor should my memories. i am undoubtedly certain now more than ever that i am ready. 
"won't you be sad when you go back? won't you phone him?" 
no
it's as simple as this... when you give your heart to someone, fully and selflessly there is simply no more to give. there are no more phonecalls or conversations or what-went-wrong's or how-about-the-weather's. i've had a significant about of time to actually mend myself back together - to take all the kaleidoscopic pieces and build a stronger inner foundation where even more light can shine through. all that i gave is still his. if in the future he should want to return that precious gift, he will always find my door open to do so. and if not, then he will forever be holding one of the greatest, most valuable, and rare treasures in life.

an honest heart.

33 comments:

  1. Amazing photo darling!

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  2. You go, girl :) I believe in you! Cities are always better to fall in love with than men anyway!

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  3. Wow, this post is so beautifully written. I hope you are able to find the separation and are fully able to enjoy everything that London has to offer! Wishing you the best of luck X

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  4. Great shot! :)

    Best wishes,
    Radka from www.flowerofpassions.blogspot.com

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  5. Gorgeous post - sounds like England is your first love. Happy travels! x, Kat

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  6. Very great written post. I'm sure you will have a great time in London.

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  7. wow!!
    I love this pics !!
    Have a nice day!
    I am waiting for you dear!!

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  8. good luck in your new stage sweetie!! xoxo
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  9. This is beautifully written. To get over my own heartbreak I learnt that you can still love them and will always love them there will always be a special place in your heart for that person but you WILL love again and when you do it will blow any other love you experienced before out of the water! Have an epic time in London hun
    Rebecca xx

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  10. Nice pics and post. Have a great day.

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  11. I think you will be ok ^^
    xoxo

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  12. gorgeous photo of you. beautifully written anecdote, thank you for sharing! I do hope you have an amazing time with your friends and loved ones.

    Best
    Stephanie
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  13. honest truth, open the door and your mind to greater possibilities.

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  14. great photos!

    you write so well!

    wishing you all the best of luck when you go back and back to a road of repair!

    x

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  16. Wow this post made me nearly cry! Long time I've read such a wonderful and poetic post! You seem to have a good and honest loving heart!!! I can understand that you have problems separating the place from the person - one always combines memories with places... give it a chance, when you face your fear you will grow out of it stronger and more powerful! I hope you'll find you peace and love! Love, Kyra

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  18. Have a great trip, hun.

    Have a great day!

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  22. have so much fun in london! great picture and post. you are a great writer :)

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  24. Just love it!


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  26. AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!

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  29. What a sweet post. It's so honest. I hope you have a fantastic time in London! A beautiful city like that definitely should be thought of with excitement!
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  30. Nice post! Have a wonderful weekend:)

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